I understand. As for your request, I stand by it in full, with this post as my last.
Do I look like I'm being too aggressive? If it does look that way, please know that I have no intention of hurting you.
Also, there was a slight misunderstanding in my words yesterday. What I wanted to avoid was not having awkward exchanges with you, but rather directly engaging in a way that would leave us both with no way out and compromise your loyalty to your own words. However, I should indeed refrain from this approach as well.
Even so, why did you leave a PS in the form of an addendum instead of making a new post? Were you testing my observation? I did not ask for silence from either myself or you, but if you truly desired my silence, shouldn't you have remained silent as well? Why do you stop arguing and resort to sarcasm? Long before any clumsy exchanges began, do you think I'm so insensitive as to not notice your knife often cutting me from behind while I clumsily played with logic? Under the same circumstances, are you aware that there have definitely been a small number of people who were forced to interrupt their own creations at times? Your logic is like a weapon refined for destruction. There is no weapon that shows consideration for others. However, all of this is forgivable. If you were a genius, that is.
I also have many points to reflect on. Indeed, my approach may have lacked fairness. I apologize. To be honest, I was not conscious of the majority of my followers. I was only aware of one friend of mine. I have no excuse. If the result made you uncomfortable, that is entirely my fault.
As I declared at the beginning, I will fully carry out your request. However, you cannot deny that I will follow you as a silent reader. There is no need to explicitly state this, as it is certain.
I should not pose much of a threat. I respond to goodwill with goodwill, and to malice, I simply shrug my shoulders a little. If prompted to reflect, I will oblige. Do you find me frightening? That cannot be the case.
If you renounce being a genius and desire interaction with others, as you advocated when you first returned, I can be the starting point for that. You may not believe it, but I do not harbor ill feelings towards you (you must have come to dislike me greatly, which is unfortunate). I only have concerns. I have seen and know the catastrophes you have gone through when I was much more reticent than I am now. I cannot direct the destruction you bring upon my friends (although you seemed to approach them with trepidation). You have a tendency to interpret the words of others more negatively than necessary (perhaps even these words). This seems to be what often brings catastrophe upon you. Could it be that you have convinced yourself that you will never be loved?
Do you truly desire solitude? It does not appear so to me. Why are you here? Is intolerance still your emblem? At times, your intolerant fangs seem to devour your own creations. It is difficult to judge the cause and effect anymore. Could this Ouroboros-like infinity itself be the cause of the immense void on the flip side?
My words and actions may seem terribly frivolous to you. In your eyes, I may appear as a coward who dares to nitpick from a low position. That is fine. As I am lazy, I can only do as I please (when I first started mentioning you, there was only whimsical and pure goodwill). I will accept any slander regarding that. Compared to you, my attitude towards literature lacks a bit of seriousness. However, for me, seriousness is not enthusiasm. However, I still sincerely appreciate the interest you have shown in my work. Please, do not return this thought alone with sarcasm.
Has literature given your life a greater cause beyond the mere pursuit of happiness? Did you truly need those words to protect yourself? If so, this time I may really have no choice but to be silent. However, if you feel inclined, try saying "Hello!" to society. You should gain more than you lose.
I wish you all the best.
今週末まで。