Mock Romance

Yuu Yamamoto 1

In the summer of my 2nd grader year, I came up with a good idea.

I, Yuu Yamamoto, aim to be a school counselor which is a kind of psychotherapist. It's embarrassing for a dream to be known to people. It's not means I don't need support. But I don't know what advice others will give me, and I don't have any guarantee that they will take it seriously. I have not talked to anyone about future story since I was laughed at by my childhood friend. It is not can be said so easily as a serious dream. However, when it comes to the time of the career hope survey, we have to clarify the future direction to some extent.

In my room there are many books on psychology. Psychology is not the kind of psychological test that high school girls imagine, but psychology as a discipline that is the subject of both natural science and mental science. By reading those books, grasping the contents, and remembering keywords. I want to pass the psychology test level 2 within a year. I will also study psychology at university and obtained a qualification. After graduating from university, I will work as a counselor in several middle or high schools. It was my life plan.

But I noticed.

In the past, I had a consultation with Ms.Ueda, a school counselor, pretending as a troubled student. It was just my psychological research for me. But the she listened to my fictional story well, nodded, and sympathized with me with a troubled face. Not acting, but really sympathetic. (It seemed to me at least) I thought that if I were a really troubled student, it would be easier to talk to Ms.Ueda. And I'm sorry that I pretended to have trouble and weighed the heart of such a kind teacher with a bad story.

I'm not good at sympathizing with something while saying I want to be a counselor. Even when I read a book, I'm not be influenced, and even when I see a movie that everyone cried, I cannot shed any tears. Because it's fiction and it does not matter to me. Even if it is non-fiction, I can't imagine what I have not experienced, and I can't sympathize. Without gaining experience, I can't become a good counselor with a sympathetic heart like Ms.Ueda. In order to become a talking partner of middle school and high school students, it must be useful to taste the situation and emotions of this young age.

However, only this is a problem....

It's love romance. I have no love experience in my age 17. I have never had a boyfriend at all, and I have no experience of one side love or heartbreak. Needless to say, I have never receive those feeling. The students around me seem to love someone without any trouble and enjoy it, and I envy them.

The good idea that came to me was to try to become a lover relationship with someone who, like me, needs the experience of love. Having a temporary companionship. Of course, if I can get my partner to agree on the premise that it is an experiential relationship as well. For those person, this temporary relationship should also beneficial for each other. The proposal will be from me, but win-win relationship isnt't it? That person just appeared in front of me (also physically), Takuya Nakashige. I knew he is aiming to be a novelist for some times before. He writes something while in class in classics, and he carries a small notebook for his novel notes. Oh, I was a bit angry that it was written as "Shyness Overcoming Committee" as he came up after talking with me the other day.

Well, I don't deny that I'm not good at talking to people. I've been trying to talk to him recently while also taking into consideration the temporary relationship. But it always becomes unnatural because I don't know how to continue the conversation after all. If he write a novel that overcomes the shyness, I would like to read it.

By the way, school festival is upcoming. Even though I can not be so active.