今日は一日良い天気でお客さんもみんな良い人で、世間話をしながら楽しんだ。

営収も午後３時過ぎの時点で１９５００円。あと一回お客さんを乗せて２００００円売り上げて帰庫しようと待機場で待っていた時、妻から突然ラインが来た。

昼間に来る妻からのラインは不吉な予感がした。

「ついこないだ、長男を実家に預けている時に、長男が母に、弟には会いたいけど、パパとママにはあんまり会いたくないみたいな態度だったそうです。子供の前では喧嘩は絶対にやめませんか」

この数年間、特に私がタクシー業界に入った二年前から収入が激減し、妻も正社員になり、家事も忙しくなり、お互い心身共に余裕がなくなって以来、喧嘩が絶えない。

一昨日も些細な喧嘩をしたばかりだった。しかも、反省しているのだが、その姿を子供たちの前で見せている。いや、これまでも何度も大声で喧嘩している姿を子供たちに見せてきてしまっていた。

私は返信した。

「そうだね。絶対に喧嘩は止めよう。おれも子供の時に一度だけ見た両親の喧嘩は、今でも心に焼き付いているからね」

この２か月間、妻は味覚障害を発症している。何を食べても味がしないと言うのだ。

先日病院でも血液検査を受けたが、亜鉛の接種にも異常がなく、先生にも原因が分からないと言われ、専門の医療機関を勧められていた。また、妻は持病で首が凝る病気（通称首コリ）を患っており、私と結婚してから発症したと言われてきた。

妻がラインを送ってきた。

「味覚障害や首コリがストレスからくるものだったら、今の生活が駄目なのかもしれません。もし症状が悪化するようだったら、子供たちの親権を全部渡すので離れませんか？」と来た。

私は「離婚したいという事？」と尋ねた。

妻は、「最近改善したと思っていた味覚症状が一昨日の喧嘩でまた味覚障害が発症しました。味覚がないのが辛いのです。今は何も考えられないくらい心が弱ってしまいました。」。

「結論を急ぐのは待ってくれないかな。おれの転職が決まって、給料が安定すれば心も安らかになっていくと思うし。そのために、去年から頑張って資格試験の勉強を頑張ってきたんだから。

とにかく、一昨日の喧嘩は謝るよ。もうイライラしたり、喧嘩をしないようにする事を誓うから。」

私はそのように返信すると、ハッと妻に対して疑念を抱いた。

男との再婚。

私の著書、転職人生の成れの果て日記の中に、詳しく記してあるが、

妻には疑念を抱かせるような行為をさせられている。

この二年間近く、私は妻には愛人がいるのではないかと疑っている。

探偵にも相談をしたくらいだ（見積の料金が高くて依頼はしなかったが）。

会社に行くと言っていたのに、会社に連絡したら妻は有給を使ってお友達と合コンに行っていたとか、男とのラインのやり取りで今度会いたいですね見たいな文字を目撃した。さらに、電話で妻が何処かの相談所に「１年以上好きな人がいるのですが、相手の態度が変わってしまったのではないか心配なんです」みたいな会話を聞いた事がある。

そういう前例があるので、私は、急に子供の親権を渡すから離婚をしたいと言ってきた妻に、疑念を抱いた。実は、昨日、持病の首コリを治療するために都内の針治療に行くと言っていたが、それが嘘ではないかと疑った。

居ても立っても居られない私はその針治療院に電話を掛けた。

「もしもし、転職人生ですが、昨日、妻がそちらでお世話になったでしょうか」。

「申し訳ありませんが、個人情報ですのでお答えられません」とキッパリ断られた。

私は怒りがこみ上げてきたが、冷静になると、それだけそういう夫婦間の問題を探ろうとしている人がいるのだと思った。

その数分後、妻からラインが来た。妻が激高している。

その針治療院が私が電話をした事実を妻に伝えたらしい。

「さっき、針治療院に電話しましたか？辞めてください。そういうのが嫌なんです。離婚しましょう。針治療に行けなくなったら困るんですよ。先生にも迷惑をかけたくありません。離婚しましょう。」

私は返信した。

「ちょって待って。電話をしたのは、昨日治療に行ったかどうかを確認する為だよ。今までも、そのような疑われる行動を取ってきたじゃない。急に親権を渡すから離婚してほしいと言うから、愛人と再婚するんじゃないかと疑ってしまったんだ。」

妻は「昨日は針治療に行きました。愛人なんていません。もうあなたとは無理です。電話をかけた事が私の逆鱗に触れました。」

私、「だから、一昨日喧嘩をしてしまった事は、謝るし、もう喧嘩をしない事を誓うって」

妻、「また、電話をかけたら本当に別れますよ。

もう少し、自分に自信を持ってください。頼りがいのある人になってほしいのです。」

私、「今のタクシー会社の低収入じゃ、自信なんて湧いてこないよ。男の自信みたいなものは転職して、ちゃんとした給料をもらってからじゃないと自信なんて湧いてこないよ。だから、そのために去年から勉強を頑張って、試験も受けて、だんだんと良い方向に向かっているじゃない」

妻、「親権の話は、あなたと喧嘩になって揉め事になるのが大嫌いだから、あなたに渡すという考えで、本当は子供と会いたいですよ。

もうストレスを感じるので、話はこれぐらいにしましょう。転職が良い方向になることと、怒りを露わにしないようにする事を願っています。

あなたに気を使いながらずっと生活してきた事は確かです。その影響が体に異常をきたしているのかもしれません。」

私は「分かりました。すいません」とラインをした。

気がついたら、会社の洗車場にいた。

周りで車を洗っているおじいちゃんドライバーたちを見て、早くここから脱出しなくてはと思った。

仕事上、色々な様々な夫婦や家族を乗せる。

自分の家庭がうまくいっていないからか、他の夫婦も色々問題を抱えているんだろうなと思ってしまう。

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The real relationship of a poor couple in their 40s

Today was a nice day and the customers were all nice people, so we had fun chatting with each other.

Today's sales was 19,500 yen as of 3pm. As I was waiting in the waiting area to pick up one more customer and return after earning more than 20,000 yen, I suddenly received a message from myu wife.

The line from her coming during the day gave me an ominous premonition.

"Recently, when we was leaving our eldest son at my parents' house, he told my mother that he wanted to see his younger brother, but he didn't really want to see me and you. we should never fight in front of the children. Would you like to stop?”

Over the past few years, especially since I started in the taxi industry two years ago, my income has drastically decreased, my wife has also become a full-time employee, and we have become busy with housework and each job, and we have been fighting constantly since we both have no time to spare, both mentally and physically.

We just had a small fight the day before yesterday. What's more, even though I regret what we did, we had showed it in front of the children. I've shown my children how many times we've had a loud fight with them.

I replied.

"That's right. Let's definitely stop fighting. I have seen my parents fight once when I was a child, and it's still traumatic memory."

For the past two months, my wife has developed a taste disorder. No matter what she eats, she says, she cannot taste it.

She had a blood test at the hospital the other day, but there was no abnormality in her zinc vaccination, and her doctor said that the cause could not be specified, so she was recommended to see a specialized medical institution. Also, my wife has been suffering from a chronic disease that causes stiffness in her neck (commonly known as stiff neck), and she told me that she developed this disease after marrying me.

My wife sent me a line message.

She said, ``If my taste disorder and neck stiffness are caused by stress, my current lifestyle may be no good.If my symptoms wiil get worse, I will give you full custody of my children, so why don't you leave?''

I asked, "Do you mean you want a divorce?"

My wife said, ``I thought my taste disorder had improved recently, but the fight we had the day before yesterday caused me to have a taste disorder again.It's painful not having a sense of taste.Right now, I'm so weak that I can't think of anything. .”.

``Would you please wait before jumping to conclusions? I think I'll feel more at ease if I could change into new company and have a stable salary.That's why I've been working hard to study for the qualification exam since last year.

Anyway, I apologize for the fight we had the day before yesterday. I promise to never get irritated or fight with you again. ”

When I replied like that, I suddenly became suspicious of my wife.

"remarriage to a man."

I have written about it in detail in my other production.

She has done things like making me feel raising suspicions.

For nearly two years now, I have suspected that my wife has a manstress.

I even consulted with a detective (though I didn't request one because the estimate was too expensive).

She said she was going to work, but when I contacted her company, she was not in her office. She was using her paid leave to go on a group date with her friend, and in a line exchange with a man, I saw a text, ``I want to see you next time.'' Furthermore, I overheard a conversation on the phone from my wife, who was calling a counseling center and saying something like this, ``I've been in love with someone for over a year, but I'm worried that his attitude has changed.''

That is why because of this precedent, I had doubts about my wife who suddenly told me that she wanted a divorce and further she said that she would give me custody of our children.

Actually, yesterday she said she was going to acupuncture treatment in Tokyo to treat his chronic neck stiffness, but I suspected that was a lie.

Unable to stay still, I called the acupuncture clinic.

``Hello, I'm Tenshoku-jinsei, thank you very much for my wife about her treatment at your clinic. I would like to confirm whether my wife took care of you there yesterday?''

``I'm sorry, but I can't answer your question because it's personal information.''

I was flatly refused.

I felt angry, but when I calmed down, I realized that there are so many couples who have same kind of problem.

A few minutes later, my wife called me. I felt she got very furious.

It seems that the acupuncture clinic informed my wife of the fact that I called her.

"Did you call the acupuncture clinic just now? Please quit. I hate such a thing. Let's get a divorce. I'll be in trouble if I can't go to acupuncture treatment. I don't want to cause any trouble to the doctor. Let's get a divorce. .”

I replied.

"Wait a second. The reason why I called was to confirm whether you went to treatment yesterday or not. You've been acting suspiciously like this before, haven't you? You said suddenly "I'm giving you custody, so I'm going to divorce you."

after hearing it from you, I started to suspect that you were going to remarry your manstress."

My wife said, ``Yesterday I surely went for acupuncture treatment. I don't have a lover. I can't be with you anymore. What you called the clinic made me infuriated''

“So, I apologize for the fight we had the day before yesterday, and I promise to never fight again.”

"If you call the clinic again, I'll really break up with you.

Have a little more confidence in yourself. I want you to be someone I can rely on. ”

``Confidence doesn't come from the current low income of a taxi company.The kind of self-confidence that a man has only comes after I change jobs and receive a proper salary.So, in order to achieve that goal, I've been studying hard, taking exams, and I'm slowly heading in the right direction."

She replied.

``When it comes to custody, because I hate getting into a fight with you and getting into trouble, so I'm thinking of handing it over to you, and I also actually want to see my children.

I'm already feeling stressed, so let's stop talking now. I hope that your career change will be for the better, and that you will never show your anger.

But It is true that I have lived my whole life paying attention to you have been making me frightened. The effect may be causing abnormalities in my body. ”

I said, "Okay, sorry."

Before I knew it, I was at my company's car wash place.

I saw senior drivers washing their cars around me and I thought I had to get out of here quickly.

As part of my job, I take a variety of couples and families.

Maybe because my own family is not doing well, I wonder other couples look unhappy.