　I don't think that "I've never by nature considered myself a decent male. The appearance of her childhood was so beautiful that she could be mistaken for a woman. She was more comfortable playing make-believe games than running. That beauty was lost in a tragic accident.

　He was forced playing make-believe games as a "creepy man" with a fat body that was full of ugliness. I was not good at exercise, and I would sit on the equipment and watch the boys run.

Now, If I had to add one more thing, I would say that even back then I preferred cute things to cool things. Or rather, I liked the neutral stuff. I didn't like the gender ubiquity of liking cute boys and cool girls, so I grew out my hair, which was cut short with clippers, or lost weight for the time being, and I began to eschew violence and aim for "my idea of beauty" anyway.