Dear my stars

12 From Asada To Kasuga Second Part

My husband didn’t stop cheating, even when I was 43 years old.

So, finally I asked for divorce.

I was also looking forward to see who chooses cheating or divorce.

Because my heart was already decided.

I abandon the status of an office worker’s full-time housewife and take a new step.

Even if he stops it, it doesn’t matter to me.

I thought it would not be bad if I took this subject as a souvenir at least.

But he made a surprising reply.

We accepted the offer of divorce smoothly.

“Actually, I was trying to cut out a story.

It was rather saved to save labor.”

“Yes…So, what are you planning to do in the future?”

“First of all, I don’t have to look at your face.

I marry a person who is going out with me now.

That’s it.

The rest is irrelevant to you.”

It was a marriage life that started with my gracious attitude.

Although it’s damaged as it’s.

It’s also completely treated as a stranger from him and is about to be thrown out.

I regretted from the bottom of my heart.

As long as my foster mother was alive, I read that word.

On the last night as Harumi Asada, there was a clearance blowing in my heart.

The next day, I decided to nest as Harumi Tsutsumi.

My residence is to choose the family home of the family house that became a vacant house and send my baggage there.

He had no help.

It’s my responsibility to go submitting divorce notification to city hall.

After finishing cleaning the breakfast, when I was going to leave, he was reading the newspaper in the living room.

I wore the court and walked over to him.

“As it’s good, listen.”

He was silent.

It’s not amusing to ignore.

Because others will become real others.

But I was good at that.

It was enough to say it.

So, I told the word.

“Until now, thank you for eating the dishes without leaving it properly.

Good bye.”

After all he didn’t respond to anything.

That was good.

Some say that a woman’s tears are a weapon, but now I didn’t want to show it.

A new life will begin in the future.

Just as my foster mother left me, I open my own way regardless of my birth.

In a couple days after returning to the Tsutsumi’s house, I was keenly aware of the severity of society.

I was a full-time housewife until now because my job last worked about twenty years ago, the job of regular employees was not decided.

With my husband’s income, I can live with part-time work, but I couldn’t get a good story of insects.

Because Akio’s company is one specializing in shemale and a center of mind, I was told that I was born mentally and physically and he can’t take care of me as a woman.

Also, with Yoichi’s cooperation, I have applied for a part-time job general affairs at city hall.

But it was that I don’t know when employment will be.

This recruitment is temporary to compensate for shortage of staff to the last, so it seems reality is hard to live.

I was at a loss, I took a walk.

Looking around, it was quite different from the past.

The wooden houses have been rebuilt into modern design houses, and the shopping arcades that were crowded when I was young are closed.

The atmosphere has changed even in the park where children gather.

Children are competing in communication games instead of taggy or jump rope.

Refreshingly looking at the green in the park is a senior generation a little older than me, and at their feet the dogs that are drawn to read are relaxing.

It seems that the current park is not an exaggeration to say that it’s for adults rather than children.

As I grew older, everything changes appearance.

Expect for only one building.

A white concrete wall on a vermillion roof.

I’m a nursing home with a nest.

Children playing in the garden there, especially girls have changed their clothes fashionably, but the play doesn’t seem to change.

They’re playing tags.

Small children run full strength, children like older children are purposely playing blunt feet quickly.

It’s the same as I looked into when I was young.

At that time I closed my mind and I tried not to contact anyone.

To tell the truth, I wanted to play with not anyone but tags, but with huge bowl.

But I was cowardly with other people.

It’s late now that I regret it.

I can never change the past.

Still I went to the facility for something.

Children who don’t know the feeling of adults stop holding tags and staying at play machines, looking at me.

An adult who seems to be an employee is suspicious and heads for us.

The woman who wore the apron seemed as young as ten years old than me.

“Well, which one are you?”

The woman bent down and looked into me from below.

It’s clearly doubtful.

I’m sure the officials of I wasn’t at the facility anyone.

“I’m Harumi Asa…no, Tsutsumi.

Thank you for taking care of me here 33 years ago.

It’s nostalgic…”

“Tsutsumi…”

The woman scratches her chin with her forefinger and is about to remember something.

“Ah…Maybe Ikuko Tsutsumi’s daughter?

Well, surely, did you donate your legacy to us?”

“Yes, that’s right.”

She beat her slap with her own fist and asked with a face that looked like an inspiration.

“Thank you so much for that clause, I’m Akiyama, I don’t have one other staff at that time, please do come up.”

She named Akiyama accepted me smiling at the cheek of colored leaves.

There was nothing useless in the facility, and it was neat.

Perhaps children are well organized.

It was the case when I was indebted to the facility.

“Sit down, please.”

Ms. Akiyama served tea for me.

“I have heard from the staff about Ms. Tsutsumi, from this facility she got three people and she was able to raise all of you well.”

“Such a thing…It’s a respectable thing…Although my foster mother is certainly worth respecting.”

“Enough, you’re respectable.”

Ms. Akiyama stained the cheeks in autumn color even then again.

I kept her excitement and talked about my present situation to deny her words politely.

It was the first time for me to tell a story to someone other than my family.

She listened to me till the very end though I was worried that she could be laughed.

And she said,

“It was a serious, but you should bave never been alone the children, as well as their families, are also the same, especially the children who live with real parents are more delicate than things to be discriminated it, it grows sensitively against it, although it’s not absolute.”

I and she didn’t do anything special to each other.

But for some season I felt saved.

I realized for the first time that this will open my heart to others.

She may have something special that I don’t have.

In addition she added words.

“Ah…Actually, there’s a shortage of cooking staff at the facility.

Although it seems unlikely to be delivered, if you don’t work here, why don’t you ask the principal as well?”

“No, I don’t mean to ask that much…”

I thought that her invitation was sympathy and I tried to turn it down.

But that was a mistake.

“In fact, recently, at the school holidays the cook came to teach the children about the dish, because our staff alone can’t become the power of the children, please do it.”

Ms. Akiyama lowered her head towards me.

The kind of personnel recruitment isn’t an easy thing to talk about.

To be able to do that, Ms. Akiyama will be responsible even among the staff.

Having been pushed so far, I couldn’t refuse me as expected.

No, there was no reason to refuse.

“I understand that story, let’s accept it.”

Then she raised her head vigorously, the cheeks of colored leaves turned dark.

“Oh, really! Thank you very much.”

“Oh, that’s it, here is to say a thank you.”

In this way, my employment has been decided.

We prepare breakfast and dinner for children on 5th of the week with other cooks and change coat, and prepare lunch with children on Saturday and Sunday.

Children were nervous at first.

However, once the children also heard what I was at this facility, they appeared trying to approach with a half-trust.

Children who casually speak to me gradually increased.

The reaction of the children was very happy just because I couldn’t it.

Eventually, I felt like doing something else for the children living in the facility.

I was walking around the park in a holiday without thinking about concrete contents.

My recent hobby is walking.

It can enjoy the change of the scenery.

Since cherry blossoms are in full bloom especially in spring, I want to blend into the petal snow storm.

At that time, I could hear the voice of one male.

Apparently, he seems to be scolding someone.

I was curious, headed towards the direction of the voice, hiding in the cherry tree.

Men with brush muscles are confronted with three boys wearing school runs.

They’re smoking cigarettes and seem to be popping out of school, considering the daytime hours.

I couldn’t stay even if I had four people staring at each other, and eventually jumped out of the cherry tree.

“Oh, Baba!”

To be honest, young attitudes were angry.

But I couldn’t miss their eyes like puppy.

“Hey, who do you want you to see yourself?”

Then the boys opened wide and dropped the smoking tobacco.

Then only the tobacco which the fire came was shortened, they stopped saying anything.

And the three left the park as if nothing had happened.

Looking next, the brilliant muscles are also open minded and lost his words.

“Excuse me…”

As a husband, he turned off the cigarette with his feet.

“Oh, this is rude.

I showed an ugly scene.”

The man picked up three cigarettes with bare hands and threw themselves to the garbage dumping ground inside the park.

“But I was surprised at you, recently I have many adults who can’t be scolded even by themselves, face to face from the front without hurry, neither do they yell at all, but the words they want it’s said that it can be put on.”

“No, it’s not a big deal for me.”

I was able to understand their feelings at that time.

My brothers-in-law didn’t become bad thanks to foster mother, but because we had common feelings about having bad feelings.

I didn’t say that to him.

“Oh, I’m sorry, I’m susupicious.

I’m Kasuga who is acting as a juvenile guardian.

I usually work as a home delivery, so today is a holiday, so I look around the neighborhood it was.”

“Oh, really”

A man named Kasuga scratched the back of his head sharply and said it.

Furthermore, Mr. Kasuga was three years older than myself and it became clear that he was single.

At this time, I didn’t reveal my identity.

I’m a woman, so I can’t easily confide to the opposite sex.

But later we met several times in the park, I began to reveal the position currently in place.

That said, I was revealed to the present occupation.

He’s a strange person, and usually has a calm face that seems not to get angry.

However, when you see a boy who runs to delinquency, change it all the way, like a demon.

Of course the boys rebound against him.

He doesn’t act on the boy’s intimidation, but he couldn’t stop many delinquencies.

Even so, I thought that I wanted to become his power not to give up, and later I joined the boy guard.

Children who wander around aren’t just children in facilities.

Like my brothers-in-law who were taken over by a foster mother, there’re also houses where adults who can be called parents live.

As I participated in his activities, the waist of boys gradually became lower, and more people stopped delinquency eventually.

“Well, Ms. Tsutsumi is amazing, don’t you think?”

I was gradually attracted to him expressing my feelings pbediently.

It may be because it was also a different type from my former husband.

As I was still in contact with him during times other than boy’s guardian’s activities.

From that point the deployment was quick.

He applied for a dating on premise of marriage.

To me like this.

I was surprised.

No way thought that I would like someone as a heterosexual affection.

Especially because her former husband was treated like a domestic housekeeper.

Besides, I’ve never fell in love with love other than him.

Therefore, I was puzzled.

“Well, it’s an embarrassing story, but I don’t know what to do at such times.”

To be honest, he answered “I’ll wait.”

“But in the meantime, as a boys guard, you’ll be active, are you OK?”

“Yes, of course it’s.”

I brought back the talk about companionship and talked to the deceased’s mother.

“Mom, is it good?

May I accept even such a person?”

I took out the will of the foster mother who concealed behind the deceased.

They asked for the words that the adoptive mother left.

It’s a matter of course, but the content of the will doesn’t change.

Nevertheless, before and after exchanging that “vows”, the meaning and impression of the words will differ.

In the past, in the words of foster mother, meaning was put in so that even of there was a wound in their hearts, the meaning was put in and it was transmitted to me.

But now I got over the wounds of my heart, the meaning is different.

Even though my former husband was holding a whole baby taste of disgust, he seemed to say that he was cutting the future.

Mr. Kasuga is also a living human being like me and my former husband.

How far can he acknowledge me?

I became uneasy and had a telephone receiver.

And when I pressed the eleven digit number, the familiar voice leaked out of the earpiece.

“Sister? What are you suddenly?”

My opponent called Akio.

Since Akio is a woman, I’m sure she will give me some good advice.

“Yeah, it’s bad when you’re busy, that consultation.”

“Good, but…Sister, I’ll often call you at me.

Are you in contact with Yoichi?”

“Of course, of course, we’re supportive companions, so it’s consultation, but…”

I told her about Mr. Kasuga.

Then wise Akio seemed unusually twisting her head.

“Sister, no matter how much I am, indeed it’s difficult to answer for every romantic love…Because I’ve never fell in love with myself.

I’ve never met that “Mr. Kasuga.”

However, this is all I can say, it’s my sister yourself, our foster mother wrote in the will also go on.

“That’s also the case…I understood, I’ll try it.

Thank you, Akio.”

When I imagined Akio living a hard life, I was inspired.

That’s it! I have my way!

I ran Mr. Kasuga’s mobile phone at once.

“Hello, this is Tsutsumi…there’re things I want you to hear…”

I decided to meet with him at the park where we met for the first time after designating the date and time.

And later.

When I arrived at the park of fresh green, I met Mr. Kasuga.

And I told my house as it was.

“Umm…what do you want me to ask?”

He seemed uneasy with his eyebrows turned into eight letters.

To such a man, I laughed.

“Sorry, I made a mistake at that time, I want you to see it exactly, if you accept it all of me, I’ll associate with you.”

“What…What are you doing!”

To me who took off my bag and clothes, he blushed and panicked.

That should be that because underwear had not worn any underwear or anything.

“This is me.”

“What do you mean?”

To him who is dubious, I confessed his earlier stature.

Then Mr. Kasuga was falling into tears.

“Ms. Tsutsumi, thank you for telling me, it was paintful, but I think it’s the medal.”

He insisted strongly.

“Order…?”

I couldn’t comprehend the meaning of the word he was saying, I heard back.

To such me, he repeatedly said, “It’s a medal.”

“Because it’s a proof that you fought to live and won the victory, surely your foster mother thought so.”

His voice was kind.

I instinctively shed tears.

Was delighted.

I never thought of dreaming that someone knows what he’s living in this way.

Mr. Kasuga wore a jacket for me naked.

Thee jacket that accumulated his body temperature is warm like sunbeams through the sun.

I cried forever and he hugged my shoulders till I stopped crying.

When the snow was on the camellia, he and I submitted a registration report.

I dated not to marry.

It’ s embarrassing because we’re over forty years each other, and we will call our relatives when our ceremony.

I didn’t want Akio to make people laugh.

He knew about it.

He was gentle everywhere.

“Oh, look at that!”

“Shooting star!”

This day was my 44th birthday.