Irreversible Process

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　There is a JPOP song called "SPY" by Noriyuki Makihara.

　I had an experience almost exactly like the lyrics of that song. It was just two months ago.

　In the middle of the city, I found my love who was meeting a guy. I followed her all the way until they disappeared to a hotel. And for a couple of hours, I was frozen stiff in front of the hotel's entrance. Suddenly, her scream defrosted me when she came out the front door.

　"You get me wrong!"

　Wrong? How?

　"He's my business partner ......."

　Hmmm. A man and a woman, alone together in a hotel, so what business deal?

　I was dealing with her in above manner, apparently. Here I append "apparently" because my memory of that time is not so clear.

　Sachi, I wish you happiness.

　With these words, I left the place. She blew up my phone, but I rejected all her text messages and incoming calls.

　At that moment, my heart for love froze. I never want to feel that way again. I would never fall in love again. I had made up my mind to do so.